Another time. To stop and think.
Its been almost a month since i properly posted in this blog. Before it really dies off, i think i should really update it.
Well, since this is my blog, perhaps i should start off by updating about how i’ve been doing and stuff…
I’ve been doing pretty fine. Life’s been going alright. Nothing extraordinary. Falling a little sick here and there because i’m pretty sensitive to the weather change i guess. I can still recall the time when i was in primary school when i still thought that time was passing too slowly and that i had lots of time to waste. Thinking back, i’m already 18… This year … ‘A’ levels and next year would already be NS… I really don’t have much time to play around with anymore.
Studies-wise… I hope that i’ll be able to score as many As as possible (who doesn’t eh?), and get into Finance / Psychology or something like that in university. I really got to buck up. Project work was an encouragement, since i managed to score an A… With the gracious help of my team mates. (Meeting up less than the number of fingers that i have on one hand… Its a feat already) Hopefully, more As are on their way.
Emotionally, i think i’m handling myself pretty fine. At least I think?
Spiritually… I’m stagnating… My cell group leader says that i don’t speak with the life of God. That there isn’t the presence of God around me… When i play the guitar… When i share my revelations… I know i’m not that good… But i’m trying… I tried to integrate into the cell group. I tried to be available. I tried to play the guitar according to the flow of the spirit. I tried to rise up to do something for God… But it seems now that i’m not good enough? I really need the Holy Spirit to guide me along. To teach me how to pray. To show me how to live. People who aren’t christians… You probably won’t know what i’m talking about… Even some christians don’t understand. But all i can say is that God really exists, that He really loves us, and that i will always live for him…
Christianity isn’t a religion… It is a relationship… A relationship with someone called Jesus. It isn’t some set of values that you live by. Not some philosophy that you hear. It is a two way thing… U speak to God… He speaks to you… So those people who really don’t understand… Perhaps its time you do…
I love people. Because i love God. I love everyone who ever comes into my life. Even for a short moment. I will do anything i can to love. All i will ever live for is love. Like how J.C. has come to give life and life more abundantly, i will also do so. I don’t care what people around me will say… I will only live by love. Probably i’ll need some time to mould myself. But eventually i’ll get there…
To achieve the ultimate purpose that God has planned for me… I’m gonna have to lay down my whole life for Jesus. My whole life.
†Whiters™† is gonna live for J.C. and J.C. alone. Forever.
