The last time i blogged about this, i really didn’t have much time to think and pen down all my thoughts. Well this time… I hope i’d be able to write a nice long post. I might digress a bit, but pardon me.

If there were to be something that really captivates me in a girl, i would really say that it is the inner beauty that she possesses. I’ve met many really pretty girls and attractive ones, but not many really catch my attention - they lack the substance of the heart. Controversially, i’ve known some girls who really just look average (perhaps worse), but they’ve the most beautiful hearts that i’ve ever seen. There is a certain thing about them that radiates out of them, a glory that cannot be described. They don’t look pretty, but they are pretty. Gorgeous. It just makes me say, "Wow…" Good looking girls dont make me say that, it is the ones with great attitudes and moral values who make me do so.

Isn’t it typical? That all of us want our friends and the people we hang out with to be good looking, attractive, handsome, pretty, hot. Its just human nature. It’s always been that way. And probably will stay this way. Our views about others are always tainted with biased opinions based on how good they look. When we see someone who is good looking, we’ll think that the person would be nice friend to be with and hang around with. However when we meet someone who is ugly, disabled, less intelligent, we tend to just shun them before we even get to know how they really are like deep in the inside.

Perhaps many of us would have experienced what i’ve just described. In fact. Everyone.

All i can say… Is that all these looks are only superficial. Really, the most important thing is how the person is like on the inside. Because looks will fade away. Your inner self won’t. So to all my friends out there, think before you act. Judge not that you be not judged. Look deep. And you’ll see that there is much more to life than it looks on the surface.

*Sidenote*

[Oh MaN! I just typed like half a page… And i accidentally closed the window.]

I’ve been through life 18 years so far. Many people are really selective and judgemental of others. They choose friends through looks… They choose who to be close with based on superficial looks. The majority of them most probably got disappointed on the way - because looks and character rarely comes together. Well, they only have themselves to blame. Because character is the true beauty that radiates out of a person regardless of how the person looks, and not the latter.

So far, i haven’t really seen many people who transcend the fallen human nature of superficiality. Even for myself, i have to say that my own judgement is sometimes clouded by such a nature. That is why i am careful to check myself whenever possible. But… There’s no point for me to say anything about this. Because only other people would be able to see whether i am really like this.

Now… I really only want to depend on J.C.’s strength and wisdom. Because i know that me on my own… I can’t do anything right. I only wish to stay in J.C.’s plan and will. Thats all that really matter.

†Whiters™† signing off. Praying that everyone wouldn’t just look things on the surface and that they would really stop and think about what they are doing.

Its been almost a month since i properly posted in this blog. Before it really dies off, i think i should really update it.

Well, since this is my blog, perhaps i should start off by updating about how i’ve been doing and stuff…

I’ve been doing pretty fine. Life’s been going alright. Nothing extraordinary. Falling a little sick here and there because i’m pretty sensitive to the weather change i guess. I can still recall the time when i was in primary school when i still thought that time was passing too slowly and that i had lots of time to waste. Thinking back, i’m already 18… This year … ‘A’ levels and next year would already be NS… I really don’t have much time to play around with anymore.

Studies-wise… I hope that i’ll be able to score as many As as possible (who doesn’t eh?), and get into Finance / Psychology or something like that in university. I really got to buck up. Project work was an encouragement, since i managed to score an A… With the gracious help of my team mates. (Meeting up less than the number of fingers that i have on one hand… Its a feat already) Hopefully, more As are on their way.

Emotionally, i think i’m handling myself pretty fine. At least I think?

Spiritually… I’m stagnating… My cell group leader says that i don’t speak with the life of God. That there isn’t the presence of God around me… When i play the guitar… When i share my revelations… I know i’m not that good… But i’m trying… I tried to integrate into the cell group. I tried to be available. I tried to play the guitar according to the flow of the spirit. I tried to rise up to do something for God… But it seems now that i’m not good enough? I really need the Holy Spirit to guide me along. To teach me how to pray. To show me how to live. People who aren’t christians… You probably won’t know what i’m talking about… Even some christians don’t understand. But all i can say is that God really exists, that He really loves us, and that i will always live for him…

Christianity isn’t a religion… It is a relationship… A relationship with someone called Jesus. It isn’t some set of values that you live by. Not some philosophy that you hear. It is a two way thing… U speak to God… He speaks to you… So those people who really don’t understand… Perhaps its time you do…

I love people. Because i love God. I love everyone who ever comes into my life. Even for a short moment. I will do anything i can to love. All i will ever live for is love. Like how J.C. has come to give life and life more abundantly, i will also do so. I don’t care what people around me will say… I will only live by love. Probably i’ll need some time to mould myself. But eventually i’ll get there…

To achieve the ultimate purpose that God has planned for me… I’m gonna have to lay down my whole life for Jesus. My whole life.

†Whiters™† is gonna live for J.C. and J.C. alone. Forever.

I guess i only come here when i’m feeling emotional? Or when i need somewhere to speak i guess…

Anw… Life has been pretty good. Nothing special up. ‘A’ levels coming. More stress on the way. Next year ns… Lol… God bless to all…